26 Januari 2024 It was a full moon yesterday nightBut tonight it seems still fullLike my heart feels full of youBut it doesn’t I left your city without us any spokenI saw city lights from above wondered what could’ve beenIf I reached outIf I talked outAll of everything I felt about youBut I didn’t I Continue reading

Do you remember the city lights that I show you from the window hotel?Do you remember the rain pouring out there?Do you remember we walk under the umbrella in your arms but we went not farWe ate sate kambing in my roomI look at the hallway when we walked inI look at the painting flower Continue reading

10 Januari 2024 Ya Tuhan, berilah aku ketenangan untuk segala kegundahan hatiku. Meskipun rasanya sedikit mencekik, terima kasih atas keberterimaan untuk hal-hal yang tidak bisa aku ubah, untuk hal-hal di luar kontrol diriku. Berilah dia kemudahan untuk menjalani segala apapun yang sedang dia jalani. Jangan pernah kembalikan ‘kami’, jika memang itu tidak cukup baik. Aku Continue reading

I remember I was the bad guyWhen you were the mistake but I became the villainI remember all said about you, “Such a poor little soul.”But turned on me like I was pure evil People cheered on you, laughed with youCelebrating your mistakesYou toast the champagne with no shameI was unseenI had no place, no Continue reading

I remember everythingI remember the tears, the painI remember how you made me feelI remember that you could choose to be kinderJust a littleBut you didn’t I remember I was innocentI remember I smiled and said ‘hi’But you couldn’t contain itMy pureI said shitty things once or twoBut God! He knew my heart is pure Continue reading

22 Desember 2023 I’m always be the ghost of youBecause you make me tooYou like it, me lingering in your mindYour words have been haunting meI like it, playing all of them in my mindI don’t forget, not any single syllables There are days you remember me the mostThere are days you wish you could Continue reading

10 Desember 2023 I remember the night when we fightHow you refused me though couple months ago you forced meI was mad and you kissed my cheekWrapped your arms around meSo I buried my head in your chestListened to your heartbeat all along the night I should buried my feelings too, shouldn’t I?And I didBut Continue reading